When I got to college

When I first got to college I was scared and confused. I didn’t know what to do and I wasn’t sure if this was for me. I didn’t realize that a lot of people have this experience but not everyone shares it. It’s normal, you’re still figuring out what to do and where you are and what you want from life. I was so confused in fact, I ran to the bookstore to try to find answers. I ran to the aisle with all the guides about college and life and tried to find something, anything, HELP! But I didn’t find anything and the advice in the book didn’t seem to talk to the things I was feeling; lost, defeat, hurt and confused. I wasn’t sure if I should be out or if I should be in, I wasn’t sure if I should be feeling confused or excited.

I later learned, not everyone has experienced what you have, even the people in the books. People may know similar feelings but not every author has had to face the things you’ve had to, in the guides I was searching for someone to talk to me about financial aid and being the only one on a completely different coast, not knowing anyone, not being sure when you’d see your family and feeling like the only one who wasn’t decorating their dorms with their family. These things made my college experience unique and forced me to find my own way and seek places that made me happy. Not everyone is going to have your same experience, and that’s okay. Even in that you are not alone. You have to find things that make you happy, that speak to you, that free you and that make you feel okay, again. For me, that was New York. I spent nearly all my weekends in New York working or finding some sort of opportunity. For other people, that’s their home, their dog, the local farmers market, whatever works for you, there is no right way. Some of the things you experience may feel unique to you but know there are other people who are experiencing it and others who’ve already experienced it and found their way. In it all you have to find what makes you happy. You can not let what others are doing around you determine your happiness. If you do, you’ll float off into a place that isn’t yours. If you listen to you, you’ll find freedom.

Don’t be afraid to try new thing, you probably hear this a lot but it’s true, you can’t let your past or ‘what used to make you happy’ or who you once were hold you back from becoming who you really are and what you want to do. Don’t be afraid to grow and find new parts of you. It’s a part of life and those who are able to transition into their full being become free. No matter how old you are, transitions can be difficult but always remember, ‘this too shall pass. When it’s all done, you’ll be there, you’ll be fine and you’ll stand tall, so you minus well find what is true to you. It’s all a part of the process. Keep going!’



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